Thursday, February 07, 2008,3:32 pm
just came back from reunion dinner .
so fuuuuull :DD
we had steamboat , sukiyaki style ! :D
woooots :DD
wasnt feeeling well last night .
think because of the contacts , my eye had like this cut .
or something inside or something :x
then it hurt like heck .
so went home , couldnt tahan the pain.
knock out until about 11plus this morning .
HAHAHA , slept like 12 hours :D
so shuang .
but then , still felt unwell after lunch .
slept back until qiang came back from army , which was about , 3plus ?
HAHAHA , so damn lazy :x
qiang had many stories from the army ,
SUPER ENTHU.
he seems to really be enjoying it . haa .
dammit , i thought army would teach his ego some lessons :x
after story-ing for a while ,
he knockout le. HAHAH .
dad had to drag him to go ahma's house .
it was kinda boring at first ,
we dont really talk much to dad's side .
there wasnt anything to talk about :x
so we all like , busy preparing foood .
talking random stuff .
it was kinda weird :x
but when we got out all the fooood ,
we started to talk .
still random though , not personal .
but we laughed like siaoooo .
and we all had different eating styles , all the zhao come out .
HAHAA .
after that , ling qiang and i talked .
ohkay ,we forced qiang to talk while he was half-asleeeeep :D
we talked about , how life was moving fast .
for me , imagine .
about two more years , jc would be over .
and IF , i mean IF i go uni .
student life as know it would be gone .
no more uniforms ,
no more classroom style .
no more student meals ):
no more student prices .
no more concession .
no more "they're still young" excuses .
no more having teachers to look up to , to spoon feeed you .
i dont know ,
and sooon we'll be off to the working world.
paying taxes and being a contributor to society .
provided someone will employ me .
and then , probably just grow old and work till i rot .
and then i die o.o
i mean , is that really how i want to pass my life ?
conforming to the norms of society ,
i mean , we only get ONE life , just one .
one chance to do it all, to explore all .
it just seems so , unfulfilled .
and yet im too much a coward to try anything else ,
imagine investing like 20 years and money on an idea ,
and if it goes bust ,
you not only waste money , you waste years .
you're only 16 once , you'll only study secondary school ONCE .
how DO you want to live it ?
i dont know , i dont know what i want to do yet ,
but i DO know i dont want to look back and regret it .
it really does pass in a blink of an eye doesnt it ?
*blink .
and i'll be on my deathbed .
probably too wrinkled and weak to beat myself to death having wasted what , 90 years ?
and even THEN i'll probably be too afraid .
so , what IS the right way to live life ?
im afraid , i seriously am .
God , please guide me .
you're like , the one thing in my life that im confident about ^^
im trying to convince myself not to think so much ,
to just close my eyes and take the leap .
like nike , JUST DO IT :D
muahahaha .
ohkay , enough pondering .
chinese new year is going to be quite sian this year .
not really in the whole ,
collect ang bao and go bai nian mood :x
even pineapple tarts arent so exciting this year .
sometimes i wonder ,
what the heck am i living for these days ? hahaha .
there's nothing to look ahead too ,
beside studying , and more studying .
ohoh , did i mention my plan for the coming years .
i decided to live my life in jc in secrecy .
you know , like the silent person sitting at the corner of the classroom who nobody remembers .
forever having my head buried under books.
the nerd nobody approaches , nobody cares .
forever silent ,
studystudystudy ! :D
probably going to asociate myself with a band of nerds ,
and steal all their notes !
MUAHAHAHAHAH ! :DDD
do youu think i could pull it off ?
hahaha , its only one and a half years i guess .
i dont want to screw up my alevels .
i really dont .
provided i dont flunk out by the end of year one .
ohmygosh , what if i cant cope .
*slaps .
OHKAY .
happy new year guys :DD
wishing all goood health , prosperity .
& loads of angbao :DD
after listening to sheela ,
it really bugs me ,
why the heck do these kind of things happen ?
seriously o.o
why make such minute matters explode into something big and senseless ?
and why act like such a coward , only to put a macho mask in front of your gf ?
when it was the guy's fault , get my friend in trouble then go and hide cowardly behind your gf ?
no sense luh please ,
then actually things can settle down le .
DIE DIE want make into something big ?
please luh ,
please get a life and leave my friend alone :D
i think it all started cos their relationship had no firm foundation ,
else they wont let such things affect them .
wonder why no such things happen to me .
so fascinating . HAHAH :x
heartofGodchurch